Dear Bunny (and also David),

Ever since David’s post earlier this week, I’ve been trying to articulate just what my feelings are about both David and Bunny’s posts. It’s a monumental task because anyone who knows me can tell you that I am awful at articulating the deep things. I can feel them, but communicating and telling even my closest family and friends? It’s a difficult task.

I could go on about shared experiences of self harm, self doubt, the desire to be something more… But people have already done so to such an overwhelmingly amazing degree and they say it far better than I.

What I want to say, what I wish to communicate to you, is:

David and Bunny, you help me to be brave.

You help me to look at myself and find that courage that I need to get out of bed and go out into the world. You help me to find the beauty in myself and in others.

You inspire me to create and to reach out to others across this great big thing we call the SPG fandom.

You give me the courage to fail, to fall short, and to then pick myself up, dust myself off, and aim for even greater heights because I shouldn’t settle for the “comfort zone”. Life is a challenge and you inspire me to find the fun in that.

I know how hard it is to look in the mirror and not see what you want in yourself. I know how hard it is to love the person that rests inside your skin. But because of you I am slowly finding that the person I want to be has been right there all along: She just needs help coming out of the baggage and self-loathing.

I want you to know that I think you are both beautiful inside and out.

Thank you for enriching and connecting so many lives. Thank you for everything that you do, that you’ve done, and everything that you are going to do. Thank you for changing my life for the better.

Thank you for sharing your stories, your insecurities, your hopes and dreams.

Thank you for making me feel like I am not alone.

All of my love and best wishes,

Cyn